Well, 2013 is nine days from it's retirement, and 2014 is around the corner. And that means it's time for a change. Well, not so much of a change, rather than self-promises to finally get around to; and while most of them are really just wishful thinking, and me coming to terms that the dreams in which I have for myself are too great for me, it's way past time that I did something to improve myself in life.
I have decided, once and for all to quit smoking. Not that, I actually feel a need to quit; but because I can not truly afford to keep the habit. And well, because... I want to be a good role model for my neice my nephew, and for any younglings who may or may not ever come into my life. That's not to say, I'm going to shun people who smoke, after all I'm a self-actualized hypocrite, and I get that.
Second, I'm going to make more of a conscious effort to exercise more. Not that I feel that I'm fat, and slovenly. In fact, despite my own fat-shaming and moderately poor self-image, I'm slowly beginning to realize that, I don't look bad. There are even some days when I actually look okay. And I get the rare compliment from members of the opposite gender. Of course, sometimes I feel that they're joking, and it reminds me of Middle School and High School, and it causes me not to believe, but... for what it's worth, it brings me a cautious sort of happy.
Third, I am going to look for a better job. Wal-Mart has really been dicking around with my hours. And maybe it's just a Christmas thing. And I get it, a lot of people are getting less hours. But, I actually work. Hell, I work more than most people, and yet I get paid the least amount of money. (I've asked around.) And yeah, I get it. Life's not fair, and not everyone is rewarded for the work they do, versus the work others don't do. But now I'm getting even less hours than before, and I still have huge debts to pay. And even after those are paid off... I won't have money enough to live on my own. It's a frustrating venture.
Finally, and this is more for me than anything else. And it actually closely concerns this blog. I'm going to be doing far less self-introspective, and more what this blog was really supposed to be in the beginning, and that was to Review movies, games, books, and other nerdly things that I respond to, since I'm part of that nerd culture. Oh, of course, I'm sure that inner reflection and introspective will come into play, and I'll no doubt have personal things to put in, but I'm going to return this blog back to the way it should have been.
In fact, I've got a few topics in mind. But I'll share those when I have the mind enough to share them.
As for my introspectives, I'll have them written down in another blog, but let's face it... most of my readers (if any) won't be privvy to it.
And I do have a site where I write poetry and some fiction, which is updated infrequently.
So, much won't be changed. Just I will work on me. And in the end, I and my blog will become a much better product.
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