So, something strange happened to me a few days ago. Something that happens to me once every five or six years. I made a connection with a member of the opposite sex that is deeper than friendship.
Caveat: I've had girlfriends before. But, it is rare that I have a girlfriend for any reason beyond doing the nasty. Which is always fun, but hardly an investment.
Counting this current relationship, I would say that the number of women that I've invested in as a girlfriend as something that is emotionally satisfying as well as physically, is probably... four. It's tough to really know what a girlfriend is supposed to do, really. I mean, I know the basics. They're supposed to be supportive, give love, and be the better half. But when I think about it; I'm not so sure what it means to be the better half. But I'm not sweating it. I'm not sure what to expect from this, or even if it will last, but I know that I'm going to enjoy this new facet of my life, and maybe this is the spark that motivates me to fix other parts of my life. Or maybe this is the final straw. Who knows? All I know is that I feel good, I feel like a 2013-appropriate amount of money (I would say a million bucks, but with inflation, and the state of the economy, a million dollars isn't nearly as much money as it once was.) I feel pretty awesome.
But with the feeling of awesomeness and all that, there also comes a certain amount of doubt. With no job, no money, and all of that, I wonder if I can hold it together long enough. Then I worry why I should worry and that I should just ride the wave. Still, this girlfriend thing, hm? It fucking rocks the proverbial socks. That's all I really have to say on the matter... for now. I wonder what's next in this funny little muddle called life. I'm not really sure, but you know, I'm not going to sweat it too much, and I'll just see what happens between now and then.
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