You know... we as humans tend to be blind to most everything that extends past our little lives. We fail to see the white, when we think our world is black. Even the most optimistic of us tend to see life as gray. Even though life isn't just black or just white, I've always wondered what life has in store for me. And maybe, just maybe wondering isn't enough. There comes a time in life when the child has to decide, and the adult has to act. Where does that moment come, and when does it have to be? Well... I'm sitting here at thirty years of age. The time is nigh, I suppose. Or maybe it's already come, and I just need to hop on that particular trolley.
Life's starting to become pretty cool. And maybe for the first time, in many years, I'm beginning to look ahead, instead of looking down at my feet, in the now. I got friends, I got family, and yeah... sometimes those things cause drama. Sometimes that drama harkens back to high school, and you know... who cares, right? Sometimes that drama is at levels that no sane person should understand. And sometimes, the drama is so unnecessary, that it should become some sort of meme. (Really? the word "meme" is considered correctly spelled?!) But, whatever it is, it's mostly healthy. For how would we know the mountains, if we don't walk the valleys?
It's been a strange journey, thus far... and maybe I'm still a little young to really go back and be nostalgic about it, but at the same time... Why not? I'm still trying to figure out this funny little muddle known as Tony. Life and love come at the epicenter of my life, and I have always believed in the great good of the human soul. And in this ever increasingly sedentary lifestyle that we as Americans, and indeed we as humans enjoy... that's saying a lot.
It's been a strange journey. One that has led me to six continents. One that has shown me combat, and the depravity of man. One that has yo-yo'd my emotions with empty promises, broken dreams, financial debt, short relationships, subtle and overt racism, and prejudice. But one that's blessed me with experiences unlike most would ever come to know, simple pleasures, and kind joys. It's a journey that has kicked my nads, both metaphorically and physically. (and of course, "nads" is not a word) But a life I wouldn't trade for anyone else's.*
For now, I'll keep wondering, and I'll keep looking. And if I find myself in another decision that could dramatically alter my life, I'll jump on that shit.
I bet it'll smell like sunshine and faerie farts.
......next time on the Infraggable Tony-Reviews, I'm going to review one of my favorite TV shows. That 70's Show. (No clue why.)
*Unless that life is Bruce Campbell's. He's a boss.
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